This Awesome Life

I did it again, didn’t I.

I started writing here again, and it went well for a few days, and then back to my old habits of not updating. Life is strange sometimes when even something you want to do doesn’t seem worth the effort. I’m churning a lot around in my head these days.

I still haven’t full started the low FODMAP and now I’m waiting on a doctor’s appointment at the end of June. So that may or may not be something that happens in the future – it’s fairly likely, but I need that medical side done first.

That leaves this blog – what is the purpose here? I guess it’s going to just become a journal of sorts. I’m going to go back to tracking the things I do. I actually have a draft started from a project I completed a couple weekends ago that I need to finish and publish.

Since this is my blog, I guess it can be whatever I want? I’m interested to see where it goes from here as I get back into the world and try to live the best life I can. I just want to bring everyone else along with me.

I’m always thinking of things, past things, future things, imaginary things. Just things pretty much all the time. This isn’t a bad thing, most of the time, but it makes me wonder what is my purpose.

We are given this opportunity called life but now are faced with deciding so many things. Little things like what to have for breakfast to giant things like your entire core belief system.

I sometimes think about things I’ve done in the past and how they may or may not have lead me to where I am. I’m a tinkerer, a hobbyist of many trades, I enjoy diverse activities but never really master any.

As easy as they start, they end, but they can start again if I try. So then I wonder, why not work harder to become more skilled at one or two things? I guess it’s a form of fear of missing out but for opportunities?

I want to get back to doing the things I know give my life meaning. Writing in this blog consistently is one of those things. So here are my plans/ideas that are just sitting in a holding pattern.

– Writing – I used to love to write, especially fiction, but for some reason I stopped

– Reading – my to read pile is ridiculous, I should make a post just about that

– Podcast – I mean everyone has one so why not. I have the equipment, the idea, the computer to record and edit on. I just never make the time to do it.

– Music – I don’t practice nearly enough and then wonder why I’m not skilled. My keyboard and my ukulele need my time as well.

– Photography and videography – again, I don’t make time for this

The list goes on but I think we all see the trend. Poor time management. I suppose this rambling post will come to an end now. I have planning to do. If you read this far, thank you.